The Title Says it all.
I am so fucking confused.
Lol...
And thats It,
Crayton
aswewere
Leaning On this Stronghold...
"leaning on the Everlasting Arms... Leaning, Leaning"
-A church Song (everlasting arms)
I sit in church, and watch the woman of the past walk by our pew. These are the woman
that baked pies with my grandmother, that had children playing with my mother in the
sandbox.
I watch them pass, and realize, that they had secret lives. Many of their children
Now, 30's years old, beg for attention. They had secret lives, and theirs lasted much longer
than a "Desperate Housewives" Episode...
I almost started crying when i realized this all...
Then i had a shot of wine, to soothe my pain,
-Er... i mean, to sample gods goodness
Anyways.
Crayton (add more later Yo
)
-A church Song (everlasting arms)
I sit in church, and watch the woman of the past walk by our pew. These are the woman
that baked pies with my grandmother, that had children playing with my mother in the
sandbox.
I watch them pass, and realize, that they had secret lives. Many of their children
Now, 30's years old, beg for attention. They had secret lives, and theirs lasted much longer
than a "Desperate Housewives" Episode...
I almost started crying when i realized this all...
Then i had a shot of wine, to soothe my pain,
-Er... i mean, to sample gods goodness
Anyways.
Crayton (add more later Yo
)"I wont be Left"
I find myself settling for much less that i should...
I'm desperate as a Dove, with no option but a dog's mouth.
I think to myself,
If i cant get better righ tnow, whtas the harm?
But... i think i might be slowly training myself that this is a good as i can get.
Ever.
And as of now, i know thats not true.
Cockyness is not such a bad thing.
Its actaulyl really hot.
And im no where near cocky.
Me and my darling bek have decided we have ego problems,
One moment, fullof ourselves,
The next...
Well... lets say we are slightly less happy with ourselves.
I'm depressed in this mellow dramatically joyful way.
Understand me more now?
I didnt think so.
Its liek, my life would be to you,
As wlaking down a dark ally,
KNowing that your friends live two streets down,
And all you hav eto do is get past this scary place.
Imagine if you were sooooo sad,
Because you dropped a cupcake you'd been waiting years for.
Can you imagine how i feel now?
Do you understansd that i quake, even in my toes.
As they tell me they love me,
Krystle: You've kept me going for a week...
Julie: I made art today, with a watermelon rind in the sand.
Everyone: can you hold me in your arms? im so scared...
I wont get mad, When you say things are getting too hard.
-T+S
Crayton
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I'm desperate as a Dove, with no option but a dog's mouth.
I think to myself,
If i cant get better righ tnow, whtas the harm?
But... i think i might be slowly training myself that this is a good as i can get.
Ever.
And as of now, i know thats not true.
Cockyness is not such a bad thing.
Its actaulyl really hot.
And im no where near cocky.
Me and my darling bek have decided we have ego problems,
One moment, fullof ourselves,
The next...
Well... lets say we are slightly less happy with ourselves.
I'm depressed in this mellow dramatically joyful way.
Understand me more now?
I didnt think so.
Its liek, my life would be to you,
As wlaking down a dark ally,
KNowing that your friends live two streets down,
And all you hav eto do is get past this scary place.
Imagine if you were sooooo sad,
Because you dropped a cupcake you'd been waiting years for.
Can you imagine how i feel now?
Do you understansd that i quake, even in my toes.
As they tell me they love me,
Krystle: You've kept me going for a week...
Julie: I made art today, with a watermelon rind in the sand.
Everyone: can you hold me in your arms? im so scared...
I wont get mad, When you say things are getting too hard.
-T+S
Crayton
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It's Been a Toga Weekend
The thing is,
I would love you so much more if you would only shed your Toga.
Reveal some more skin, my Friends.
Revel in your own beauty for just enough time,
that I may look upon your empowering Youth-like Visage.
That's my Message to all who danced and were Greek. enjoy.
My new friends.
They fulfill me (sp?)
I once flew into a sky,
Much like the one, here, at home.
I dove into the sky, as if it were the sea.
and i Flew about this sky like sea, until i became weary and tired...
You must understand more about this space i was flying in.
The pastels of the surrounding air substance was so magikal,
It was truly breathtaking, beyond a cliche type advantage point from a random
Highschooler attending an average Education based Foundation (such as a School).
The sun type thing orbiting my place is bright, clean, and pure.
It's also very warm.
I like being here. I like it a lot. I feel so safe. I never am cold, or alone.
If nothing else, i have birds to keep me company.
But most of the time, i have you near to me.
You hug me a lot. We can sway in a hug like no ocean before us.
I am mother nature. I am mother nature, i am mother nature. And you are my Husband.
Even though im Technically the boy, adn you be the Gurl.
I dont like gender differences. We should all be the same.
I'd like that i think.
I spent the weekend in a strange place, with eccentrically perfect people.
I spent the weekend completely emptying my Balloon.
It was quite full.
I think Krystle might be my god soon.
I think that julie Friend could easily be my secret lover,
Hiding beneath sheets like egyption Dieties.
(Love Dieties. Like, Gods of Passion).
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
That's how much i love you guys.
Goodness...
Finally, ive gotten a hold of you.
Ex's can go to hell now. I dont need you anymore. I really dont.
Much like i no longer crave meat do i not crave you.
(a suggested tag for this post is "Mother Daughter Time" could they be more off?).
I lost my disposable camera for the trip, so i have no pictures. SIGH... that's
SO very depressing, you've no idea.
I'll update in a moment, more that is. Im so terribly hyper i cant stay on task.
<1 <2 <3 <4 <5 (of course)
-Crayton
I would love you so much more if you would only shed your Toga.
Reveal some more skin, my Friends.
Revel in your own beauty for just enough time,
that I may look upon your empowering Youth-like Visage.
That's my Message to all who danced and were Greek. enjoy.
My new friends.
They fulfill me (sp?)
I once flew into a sky,
Much like the one, here, at home.
I dove into the sky, as if it were the sea.
and i Flew about this sky like sea, until i became weary and tired...
You must understand more about this space i was flying in.
The pastels of the surrounding air substance was so magikal,
It was truly breathtaking, beyond a cliche type advantage point from a random
Highschooler attending an average Education based Foundation (such as a School).
The sun type thing orbiting my place is bright, clean, and pure.
It's also very warm.
I like being here. I like it a lot. I feel so safe. I never am cold, or alone.
If nothing else, i have birds to keep me company.
But most of the time, i have you near to me.
You hug me a lot. We can sway in a hug like no ocean before us.
I am mother nature. I am mother nature, i am mother nature. And you are my Husband.
Even though im Technically the boy, adn you be the Gurl.
I dont like gender differences. We should all be the same.
I'd like that i think.
I spent the weekend in a strange place, with eccentrically perfect people.
I spent the weekend completely emptying my Balloon.
It was quite full.
I think Krystle might be my god soon.
I think that julie Friend could easily be my secret lover,
Hiding beneath sheets like egyption Dieties.
(Love Dieties. Like, Gods of Passion).
<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
That's how much i love you guys.
Goodness...
Finally, ive gotten a hold of you.
Ex's can go to hell now. I dont need you anymore. I really dont.
Much like i no longer crave meat do i not crave you.
(a suggested tag for this post is "Mother Daughter Time" could they be more off?).
I lost my disposable camera for the trip, so i have no pictures. SIGH... that's
SO very depressing, you've no idea.
I'll update in a moment, more that is. Im so terribly hyper i cant stay on task.
<1 <2 <3 <4 <5 (of course)
-Crayton
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